Thursday, October 15, 2009

October 15th


Tonight we remember
our children

The death of a baby is like a stone cast into the stillness of a quiet pool; the concentric ripples of despair sweep out in all directions, affecting many, many people. --De Frain, 1991 
Peyton Elizabeth Binder 9/4/08-10/2/08

Our candle burned bright tonight at Peyton's grave.
No amount of snow or cold could keep us away.

I went name by name, remembering and praying for each of the babies that I have grown to love through this community.  Your babies' stories have touched my heart deeply, and they will never be forgotten.

Thank you so much to all those who remembered Peyton tonight
and especially to Quinn's amazing Momma Marybeth 
for honoring Peyton with this beautiful candle.


  1. Remembering Peyton with you today.

  2. You're in my thoughts too.

    ((hugs and prayers))

  3. Peyton is loved and remembered and our candles were burning bright last night.

  4. Remembering Peyton with you,
    Love to the sky


  5. We will remember Peyton tonight while our candles are burning. Please think of Morgan and Blumpy with us.

  6. Peyton will be remembered along with my son Calvin and many other beautiful babies tonight as I light my candle in rememberance of them. Hugs

  7. peyton's candle burns in my home and on my blog. xxMB

  8. I will be remembering all the children when I light my candle tonight. ((HUGS))

  9. Remembering your precious Peyton and all of our babies tonight. My candle is still lit.

  10. We'll be remembering Peyton here in Lotus Land's 6:12 as I write this and I've got the candles ready above the fireplace. With autumn here now it's growing dark already, but the rain stopped. It breaks my heart that we have so many names to lift up tonight. Thinking of you and all the other babylost mummas tonight. And always. (((Hugs)))

  11. Remembering Peyton with you tonight *Hugs*

  12. Hello I was just on Audrey Caroline's blog :( I read your post and just went through your blogs. I just felt drawn to write to you. I am so sorry for your loss. My cousin lost his son to cancer of his kidney which he had since birth. I lost my son at 17 weeks gestation. Dominick Joseph was born to the angels on March 23, 1996. Time has healed some of my wounds but it still feels like yesterday I lost him.

    I also follow a blog. This lady lost her son to childhood leukemia. Today she was saying about grief books she has read but one she says everyone who has lost a loved one especially a child should read it. Google has it online:

    It is called My Dream of Heaven. I am going to read it now.

    You are in my thoughts and prayers tonight.

    Jo Lynn

  13. Hello, I am so glad you linked up. My heart aches for you. You have an amazing way of expressing your grief. You share with such raw emotion, which I am sure is what it is. You know there is not much one can say, and usually risks saying the wrong thing. But let me say that I remember with you, I hurt for you and I will pray for you. I cannot fathom the sorrow you feel, but one thing I do know is that God is enough. It might not seem like it, in fact I am sure it doesn't most times, but He is where you help and comfort must come from.

    Lord Jesus, comfort this breaking heart. Fill her with hope and joy even in this horrible circumstance. You are enough, Jesus, You have to be. Heal her heart, where there is sorrow let there be joy, where there is hopelessness, let there be hope. Oh God, be all that she needs, shower her with your mercy, wrap your arms around her, hold her tightly. Let her know you never let her go. Calm her fears, wipe her tears, still her grieving mind, let her KNOW You like she has never has before.

    Even when you feel like you can't hand on a second longer, know you don't have to because He will never let you go.

    "He will perfect that which concerneth you..."

  14. I love the quote on your header. What do you call a mother who was once a mother to a live baby girl? You still call her mother, because that is what she is.

    Tears aren't enough, are they?

    Blessings, Sweet One.


  15. Sending love and warmth your way....your Peyton was shining bright with the fire in my home. (hug)

  16. Thank you for remembering my babies in your prayers. I appreciate that so much!! I was happy to do a balloon release for all babies, known and unknown. They are all so special.

    And I would like to comment back on the comment you left on the post with the videos of visiting Carleigh. While I'm not sure I'm real wise, I know I have been to a darker place. My experience with Jordan took me there. I learned much and healed much climbing out of the hole I created almost 7 years ago. Perhaps that is it. Of course, I gotta give God some credit too.

  17. Thinking of you...

    I love the picture of you holding Peyton. It is so beautiful.

  18. Beautiful pictures. What a beautiful way to remember Peyton. *hugs*

  19. I also lit a candle on Oct 15th. I'm sure that Peyton has a lot of wonderful friends in heaven...all of the babies that we have lost, I believe, are all in heaven together in a special place.

    Here from Blogger Bingo (a post with a picture of the blogger).