One year ago...
I was checked into the hospital.
Happy.
Hopeful.
Naive.
One year ago...
They induced me a second time,
and told me the contractions would start in the morning.
One year ago...
We debated names with the nurses.
I stayed up all night excited,
Daddy fell asleep on the cot beside me.
One year ago...
We anxiously awaited your arrival.
I was sure you were a boy,
and we finally settled on the name Finn.
One year ago...
We still had our innocence.
We were so young then,
so very, very young.
One year ago...
We knew everything was about to change,
and imagined the wonderful ways
that you would impact our lives.
One year ago...
Was the last day our life was normal.
We lay in wait unknowing,
of the storm up ahead.
One year ago...
I was your mother.
Why didn't I sense what was happening?
How could I not know?
One year ago...
I can very much relate. xo
ReplyDeleteOne year, but a lifetime ago. A very eloquent poem of the heartache you are enduring. Thinking of you.
ReplyDelete((((hugs))))) beautiful. poignant. Sweet and sad. I am so sorry. Peace.
ReplyDeleteThe longest and shortest year...thinking of you with love as you remember Peyton's birthday.
ReplyDeleteI've been thinking about you all week as you approach Peyton's birthday. I too wonder the same thing. How did I not know something was so very, very wrong. I sensed something was not quite right, but I never imagined the outcome to be what it was. I never would've thought that my baby had a fatal condition.
ReplyDeleteI'm wishing you lots of strength to get through tomorrow. I feel panicked to think of celebrating Freja's birthday without her here. Many ((hugs)) my friend.
I'm sorry you have suffered this last year. I'm sorry you hurt so much.. and I pray for you daily for you to heal.. for your smile to return..
ReplyDeleteHuGZ
thinking of you this weekend. lean on each other, and stay strong. beautiful poem.
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MB
You are a stronger person today than you were one year ago. Sending you hugs and prayers!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and your baby girl.
ReplyDeleteMy heart hurts for you. Thinking about you and praying for you. xx
ReplyDeleteIll be thinking of you this weekend. Its funny how we measure time now. This month they'd have been, its been such and such amount of time since, So many hours and minutes untill... I guess thats the watch that we all wear in our angels memories. We cant help it. I hope your hurt is eased some this weekend with all the prayers being sent your way as you mark this milestone.
ReplyDeleteI just "found" you this evening after clicking on your profile link on a comment on my friend Kathy's blog (Three of a Kind...).
ReplyDeleteYour daughter is beautiful and I am so, so sorry for your tragic loss. My thoughts are with you.
(((Hugs))) to yo and your sweet Peyton.
ReplyDeleteJust wishing you peace this day x
ReplyDeleteIn one year so much can change...
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Peyton
Thinking of you today. Praying you will feel Peyton's presence more than ever.
ReplyDeleteThis poem says so much about your anticipation of Peyton's first birthday. I can just imagine your swirl of emotions intensifying as this milestone draws near...
ReplyDeleteSaying a prayer for you and Peyton. She is remembered.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you... Sending love as you remember your beautiful daughter.
ReplyDeleteSending a prayer and love and light. I wish she were with you today.
ReplyDeleteI am thinking of you and praying for you. What a beautiful little girl.
ReplyDeleteHello, I came over from LFCA....sending some prayers and hopes for healing during this time. Your daughter is beautiful.
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