Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Why no birth story yet?

SO here is the short and the skinny of it.

I wanted a V-bac - that wasn't possible.
I wanted a c-section where I felt "present" - that wasn't possible.
I had to have a fully sedated c-section due to last minute complications. 

During the surgery I lost a tremendous amount of blood (twice what they would expect they told me)  and am still suffering just to have the energy to do anything (including type this) because this. My docs have put me on super amounts of iron supplements in the hopes that things will improve this week. if not then a transfusion will be necessary. I am feeling very frustrated by the way this has impacted my abilities with the snowflakes. I pretty much breastfeed and that is it, my hubs has had to pick up the slack everywhere else. Also, though it broke my heart to do so, we have had to do osome supplementation because my body is too weak at this point to fully keep up with their demands.

We named Baby A (boy) K and baby B (girl) H. He was 7 lbs. 2 ozs. she was 5 lbs. 11 ozs. I promise to get all the details and some pictures posted here just as soon as I feel up to it. To the many who have reached out with prayers and good wishes, THANK YOU!




56 comments:

  1. Sending prayers and strength, dear one...

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  2. So very happy they are here safe, I am praying for strength and healing for you.

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  3. Take care of yourself and those beautiful snowflakes! Congratulations!
    I am sorry their birth did not go as you wished but am so glad they are here and healthy.

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  4. Look after yourself and don't be hard on yourself about the supplementation - you're body needs to recharge then you'll be better able to do it. Love is the most important thing - and sounds like you've got plenty of that to give :) xoxo

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  5. I am sorry things have been rough but i'm glad the babes are here..safe an sound. Congrats, looking forward to you in better health and baby pics!
    ~Felicia

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  6. kristin, i'm so sorry that your delivery of the snowflakes has taken such a huge toll on you. sending all good wishes for quick recovery. please let me know if there's anything i can do for you. i think i'm about an hour and a half from you. i don't want to intrude, but i can also drop off food for you and andrew if you need it. xo

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  7. Congratulations! Love the names!

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  8. I'll send you a message but this very much sounds like my first week (just with one baby instead of two, so huge love to you mama!)
    I lost twice the amount of blood as well but somehow dodged the transfusion. I had lots of blood tests in hospital to make sure my haemoglobin levels were coming back up. As if I didn't feel tired enough already.
    Mostly, I am still just so happy and relieve those precious little babies are here. Safe and sound.
    xo

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  9. Congratulations! I'm so happy for you and your lovely family!

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  10. Prayers for a very quick recovery for you sweet girl. I'm so excited that those little babies are here. I love both names (Hadleigh was on our short list too!!). I can't wait to see those little babies.

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  11. Rest up and feel better. Give yourself and your snowflakes all the attention you need. :))

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  12. Love the names, very original. Just remember, its always a means to an end thing--i.e. the birth, the feeding. Things don't always work the way you want--but they are here, and that is what counts. They will eat (whether your breast and/or supplement) and that is what counts. :-)

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  13. I think you are well excused, Kristin. Right now you need to focus on you, and your gorgeous, precious little snowflakes!

    And we will always be here, excited for you, and readily awaiting those photos and your birth story.

    Hugs!!

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  14. Glad to hear things (mostly) worked out. I know the birthing experience wasn't what you wanted, but I'm glad to hear both arrived healthy. Hope you are feeling stronger and healthier this week and can avoid a transfusion. However, if you do have to have one, as a nurse I can tell you the benefits of having a transfusion are almost immediate. In the NICU when we'd give a transfusion to a baby with a low hemaglobin, within hours they would be pink, with better oxygen sats and bouncing off the sides of their isolettes in no time! None of that pesky waiting for the iron to work.
    Good luck. Be good to yourself. You deserve it.

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  15. Formula is a tool to use when needed and you need it so don't worry about it. You worry about getting back to where you need to take care of those babies. I will continue to pray for you 4 :)

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  16. So sorry you had complications. I hope you feel well very soon and that you get to enjoy those babies. Very cute names! Can't wait to see pictures.

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  17. Hoping things get better very quickly for you! Sending my love to you all.

    p.s. I still havent posted my birth story!

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  18. praying for you all. May God give you the "strength" to get through this stage until you have the physical strength to care for them on your own!

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  19. I didn't write on my blog for six weeks after I had my (singleton, normal vaginal birth) daughter. Don't feel any pressure to post!!! Enjoy every moment with your babes!

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  20. Continuing to send prayers and good wishes your way. I hope you feel better soon. I wish that you had gotten the birth that you wanted. It is disappointing.

    My sister ended up with a transfusion after having my nephew and it made a HUGE difference to her energy level.

    I love the names you chose and I'm looking forward to pictures.

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  21. Praying for your return to health so you can start having fun with your babies!

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  22. Just wanted to say CONGRATULATIONS! I have been praying for you and your snowflakes, and I will continue to do so as you overcome this tiredness.

    Nancy

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  23. Congratulations, wonderful news! I am glad they are here, healthy and such good weights! I am sorry your birth wasn't as planned, so glad you are ok even if not through it all yet. Take care of yourself and everything else will come. Thinking of you :)

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  24. So glad you are ok and healthy. I had to have lots of iron pills too. Hopefully you won't need the transfusion.

    Don't feel bad about the supplementation- my milk didn't come in for 6 days. On day 3 I finally started getting colostrum but the kid was hungry. I ended up supplementing with formula and the nurses used this tube and syringe with formula attached to my nipple so he would nurse and encourage the milk to come in and actually have something to eat. Then, when he was older, he ate like 20 ounces in an 8 hour day and I could only pump 14 ounces so I didn't have a choice.

    Your baby's names are beauiful- can't wait to see some pictures.

    xo

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  25. Sending you love and healing vibes. Be kind to yourself, you have been through so much. So glad Kellan, and Hadleigh are both here safe. x

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  26. oh I am praying for you that you will make a quick recovery! I am glad the babies are healthy and doing well!! HUGS

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  27. Beautiful names for your snowflakes! So glad they are here and are ok.

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  28. Feel better soon and congratulations on your lovely babies. Rest and feed and forget about everything else.

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  29. I am so very happy they are hear. I am so very, very sorry about how they had to enter the world.

    I understand, in small measure, the dichotomy of those two emotions and genuinely mourn that part of their story with you.

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  30. Can't wait to see the pics, but your health is important at this moment and will pray for your recovery.

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  31. I hate to hear of the struggles but I am so happy to know that you are slowly on the mend. I can only imagine how frustrating it is to not have the energy to do more. Praying for a quick recovery!!! And PS - LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE the names, both of them, they are fantastic. Congrats again!

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  32. I hope you start to feel great very soon! I want you to be able to enjoy every second of your new blessings!

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  33. Congrats on the snowflakes. SO SORRY to hear about the complications. Truthfully, sometimes all a mom can do is breastfeed and other DO have to pick up the slack. I am praying for a return to health. I have lots of breast milk in my freezer if you want me to share. There are several places where you can get milk to help supplement IF YOU WANT. Let me know if you want that information.

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  34. Your c sounds like my first one - it took me 2 weeks to recover from the amount of blood loss during my emergency with Joseph. I am despirate for it to NOT happen again with little Jonathan already knowing no chance at V-back for me.. I am aming for "present" c-section with spinal block but the chances of full drop out are high.. I am sorry you had that experiance but am SO SO greatful your outcome was favorable.... knowing all to well how dangerous this was for you.. and both babies.. I am not really that religious.. but right now I THANK GOD you survived.. and that the babies are healthy and happy and that THEY survived.. I love them.. I love the picutres on FB.. they are perfect and beautiful just like thier mommy.. but they DO look a lot like daddy!!!

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  35. I think that pretty much breastfeeding and that is all is QUITE enough - don't do anything else - you are doing the best you possibly could. Best healing and recovery wishes to you. Enjoy your beautiful babies, x

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  36. Congratulations on the births of your new bundles of joy. And I love the names! Wishing you a speedy recovery...

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  37. Sending prayers of strength and healing your way.

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  38. So sorry that their birth didn't go as planned. Praying you feel better soon. I don't think Dru minds picking up the slack for now. Once you are better you can carry on right now just concentrate on getting healthy once again. Don't feel bad about having to supplement either, you are an amazing mommy. Love ya lots!

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  39. Congrats...sorry you are feeling so rough. Happy to hear both are doing well and look forward to seeing photos. Get your rest!

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  40. Thanks for keeping us upodated! Please get yourself rested and in a schedule with the snowflakes before worrying about posting! We know it will happen in good time. We want to make sure that you are at your best for your two little ones. So sorry to hear that things were hectic, but so glad to hear that you are on the mend the snowflakes are doing fine. Take care and keep us posted in YOUR own time! :) Sharon

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  41. I'm so sorry that the birth didn't go as you had hoped. But I'm thrilled that the babes are here safely. Congratulations! I'll be thinking of you and hoping for a little sleep!

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  42. Now you'll need to change the title of your blog to "always a mother", although that never wasn't the case!

    Yay yay yay, you've made my day with the good news about the lovely snowflakes arriving. Seems that they have made some serious progress since their snowflake stage :-)

    About the iron deficiency. This is not medical advice, it's yoga advice. Long, slow, deep breathing increases the amount of oxygen you take in, and hopefully the amount of oxygen available to attach to the few red blood cells you have. It helps.

    You'll be back on your feet before you know it!

    Lots of love to all of you.

    PS is the surgical procedure related to the blood clot thingies (terminology I can't recall)?

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  43. I am sorry that your little snowflakes didn't arrive how you hoped and that you are needing to supplement. I hope the iron works v.v.quickly and you have lots more energy for your beautiful, beautiful precious babies.

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  44. Awesome!! You take your time and we will be waiting with baited breathe for more!! Kellan and Hadleigh need you more than we need an update so wait we will! Congrats again!

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  45. Sorry to hear about the problems - your doctor was risking things letting you go past 38 weeks! So irresponsible. I hope you are feeling better soon and get a moment to post a picture of yourself and your lovely babes. Best wishes, Anna

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  46. There is nothing at all wrong with letting everyone else step in and take care of everything while you are recovering and breastfeeding. Let go, rest and lactate, Kristen. Sending you much love. xoxoxo

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  47. Well done! Congratulations! What fantastic names you've picked for your children, so perfect!
    I hope you are getting used to life off bed rest and with twins!

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  48. Glad your babies are here safe and sound. I love those names and pray you recover quickly!

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  49. Thinking of you and hoping you are feeling better soon!! I had a similar blood loss situation with my emergency csection (along with the crappy feeling upon wake-up from full sedation) and it made recovery pretty horrible. Hang in there! I think the hardest part to get over in the end was the anger/sadness I had about missing the first hours and little memory of the hospital stay in general :( It will get better though and those cute little babies will continue to bring the smiles!
    Love the names! Congrats again! Sending you lots of get well wishes!

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  50. I hope you are feeling better soon. Congrats!

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  51. I will pray for a quick, though blood loss rarely is, recovery for you. When this happened to me I used Floradix Iron - Plant Iron Supplement, which made it to where my body processed the iron better. I had to take it for a long time though.

    Congratulations!

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  52. Thank you for the update. I am so sorry that you didn't get anywhere near the delivery experience that you were hoping for. I am glad that Kellan and Hadleigh (beautiful names) are doing well. I am sorry that your energy level is so low because of the complications and I hope that you do not need a transfusion. That has to be so frustrating. Hang in there. Sending lots of thoughts and prayers your way. (((HUGS)))

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  53. So glad to hear the snowflakes are doing well!
    Sorry you had some complications. As I've been in a similar situation after a birth, I can offer you the advice of taking the liquid iron instead of pills if you're not already. It is much more absorbable, tastes like sucking on a rusty pipe might, but if you can stomach it, it's better. You're going to need time to recover from the blood loss, you'll be very, very tired (on top of the giving birth and having twins tired) for at least 6 months, so take every OUNCE of help you are offered!
    Wishing you a speedy recovery so you can enjoy your babies even more! (( ))

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