I wanted a V-bac - that wasn't possible.
I wanted a c-section where I felt "present" - that wasn't possible.
I had to have a fully sedated c-section due to last minute complications.
During the surgery I lost a tremendous amount of blood (twice what they would expect they told me) and am still suffering just to have the energy to do anything (including type this) because this. My docs have put me on super amounts of iron supplements in the hopes that things will improve this week. if not then a transfusion will be necessary. I am feeling very frustrated by the way this has impacted my abilities with the snowflakes. I pretty much breastfeed and that is it, my hubs has had to pick up the slack everywhere else. Also, though it broke my heart to do so, we have had to do osome supplementation because my body is too weak at this point to fully keep up with their demands.
We named Baby A (boy) K and baby B (girl) H. He was 7 lbs. 2 ozs. she was 5 lbs. 11 ozs. I promise to get all the details and some pictures posted here just as soon as I feel up to it. To the many who have reached out with prayers and good wishes, THANK YOU!