Before knowing what it was to love her.
Before holding her as she left.
Before mourning her.
I was working on my novel today, doing some boring rewrite/edit stuff, and this one popped up unexpectedly on a youtube playlist. It touched my heart in a profound way, pulling me immediately from the task at hand to focus on its message, and especially these words:
"To think I might not see those eyesThe significance of the first line for me is the way Peyton's bright blue eyes seemed to pierce right through me. She had a look to her of wisdom, like an 'old soul' who knew that her time was limited here, even before we had accepted or truly understood that.
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do"
I see the "long goodbye" as mourning, and can relate to the "nearly do" because I have been stuck in a numb place where, even when I want to cry, my tears feel distant and unreachable.
There have been so many songs that have spoken to me since losing Peyton. Many of them are in my sidebar playlist. How about you? Have there been any songs that you have found to be surprisingly meaningful on your journey?
Run - by Snow Patrol
(be sure to pause the music player in the side bar before pressing play)