Saturday, March 2, 2013

Two years

Today marks two years since my rainbows came into the world.

Two years of laughter and love and sleepless nights and joy and tantrums and learning and teaching and all the wonderment that is parenting.

I have been so very, very blessed.

Today also marks two years since I last blogged here on a regular basis. 
I think of this space often, but life has a way of getting in the way of my writing, and right now, here, in this moment, is where I need to be.

That doesn't mean that I miss Peyton any less, of course, or that I don't think of this community every day. It's just that my heart and mind are in the moment, and that moment is a blessing to be taken in.

There have been so many changes over these last two years. So many milestones. Even as they pertain to how we remember Peyton, the kids' relationship with her is ever evolving. They say, "Bye Baby" when we wave to her grave now, and smile at her picture. I even think I heard Bubba call her "Peytey" one time. 

I feel so blessed by the incredible amount of love and healing that my Snowflakes have brought my heart. They've reminded me that life can be truly beautiful. Even a life once so broken down by grief as mine was.

Two years ago they came into my world and changed me forever.

They shined light in the darkness. Taught my heart to beat again. They are my world, my reason, my all.

They are, in a word, LOVE.

So here is to you my little Snowflakes, on the occasion of turning two.
You make me so proud and teach me new lessons every day. I wish for you a Happy Birthday and may many blessings be upon you always.

I love you xoxo



  1. Happy 2nd Birthday to you sweet Rainbows! They are adorable and I couldn't be happier for you.

  2. Oh, my gosh! They are my favorite twins ever :). Happy happy birthday, and keep the love going... here and above.

  3. Happy birthday, kiddos! I love that they say goodbye at Peyton's grave. I hope my rainbow finds a way to know his siblings.

  4. Awww...sweet babies. Happy birthday to the Snowflakes! I love the light they have provided to your darkness!

  5. 2 years! Wow How time flies! I remember checking so often to see how the snowflakes were doing as the days of your pregnancy passed. Praying for the 3 of you each time I read and thought - really!!?? Doesn't this woman deserve a flippin break! So happy to see a pic of them "all grown up" ! Happy birthday to the Snowflakes - seems Mom's life really is Rainbows and butterflies!

  6. Happy birthday to your little loves! They look like they are full of light ... but also that they are thoughtful, emotionally intelligent little beings. I love that they already know Peyton. Wishing you many more years of happiness and healing and love.

  7. Awww so sweet, Happy Birthday snowflakes!

  8. Well, I thought I commented on this post. I thought so.

    Happy Birthday to your rainbows. I remember your post about their birth story, and even your maternity pics...

    It is amazing how much of the journey in these years of life, we have traversed together.

  9. Happy birthday to your new littlest beauties.